The Life of a Barista

Mexicoooo!

2009-05-14T20:12:00.002-04:00

All righty! So much for updating every day. Everyone who knows me, knew that that wasn't going to happen. ^__^

But here's a quick rundown of how things have been going. I'll put a link to pictures at the bottom!

Saturday May 9th:

Woke up like any other Saturday. But instead of going to work, we were heading to the airport! Yaaaay! Lou's mom was nice enough to give us a lift to the brand new Indy airport, which is VERY pretty and well lit. The old airport was pretty dark and depressing. Except for the rainbow carpet, which I still kind of miss. So our flight to Houston ran 17 minutes late. It was touch and go whether it would be 17 or 18 minutes, but to our joy, it was only 17. Then we hopped on quite possible the smallest commercial plane in the history of commercial planes. I literally couldn't stand fully upright in the plane at all. Lou and I got all cozy in the very last row of the plane, prayed that the adorably squealing toddler a few rows ahead of us would be struck by a sudden and harmless coma that would shut her up for the two hours we were all trapped in the sardine can. Luckily our prayers were answered! Adorable toddler quieted down quickly and miracle of miracles! The tiny ass plane came with kick ass snacks! Not your usual pretzels and tiny cup of coke for us. No. We got a snack basket. What is that, you wonder? Well it's yogurt trail mix, crackers and surprisingly good cheese, kit kat bars and beef jerky. Heck yeah! So, after two hours, we get off the tiny ass plane only to discover that we had 25 minutes to sprint from one side of the Houston airport to the other. OH HOW WE RAAAN! But we made it! And prayed for the third person in our row not to show up. And they didn't! So we got to have a little bit of space apart which was lovely. We hoped for another awesome snack, but apparently they couldn't fit it in the plane which was a helluva lot bigger than the first. So we got two packets of pretzel bits and a tiny ass cup of coke. But we did get an inflight movie, which was one that I've been wanting to see. "Bride Wars". SPOILER: I kind of wish that Anne Hathaway's character wasn't the one that kind of got screwed over the most.
Anyway, we get to Cancun, meet up with mom and immediately get accosted by someone wanting us to take a tour of one of the timeshares. Yeah, we definitely declined that offer. And then after much standing around in the hot, we get in a van and head off to the resort. Cancun/Playa Del Carmen is an interesting place. It's a strange mix of gorgeous paradise-like beach and really rough uninhabitable landscape. So we dropped a couple off at a different resort. The Grand Mayan Resort. Which is ah-MAZING. and there was a lot of "Oh that resorts THERE! Cool!" on the drive over.
We got to Tres Rios, were promptly greeted by Jesus, led into a gorgeous lobby and given champagne and cool damp towels to enjoy while we checked in. We were led to rooms 1221 and 1222 and there we found our lovely wonderful unit. There are no words, so I'll just let you all enjoy the pictures. We wandered around, took a little self-guided tour and ate. By the way? Food. Also Amazing.

Sunday May 10th:

We finally got out to the pool! There are three levels of pool here, and all of them are equally awesome. There are these cabanas on the beach as well, and we chilled out in those for a little while. The beach is okay here, but it's not great to swim in because the first bit of it is kind of brown and yucky. Not because of pollution or anything. It comes from bits of wood and mangrove leaves. So I stood in the gulf for a while, then went to the clean pool. Where I proceeded to completely fry. Yup, I got super burnt. So the rest of sunday and basically all of Monday I was totally useless.

Monday May 11th:

Sunburnt. So very sunburnt. Spent all day sitting in bed playing on my computer. Honestly, it was a lovely way to spend the day. But in the evening we went to a show put on by the resort! It was a dance group doing interpretive dances about the life and customs of the mayans. There was even a Virgin Sacrifice which involved screaming on the girl's part, and being terrified on the part of a very small girl in the front row. There was also the most adorble litte person in the show who was totally hamming it up for all the ladies. So we watched the show and then we had a chance to take pictures with the "Mayan Warriors", who were some very attractive young men in loin clothes.

Tuesday May 12th:

Another day of hanging out. But I did get back out to the pool and hang out. So far this vacation has been perfect for relaxing. With the exception of the sunburn. So pool and relaxing all day, and then another show in the evening. This was a fire show! It was very impressive as you will all see in the pictures. Although the pictures don't do them justice because of the pickiness of my camera. I'll definitely upload some of the video that I took as well.

Wednesday May 13th:

So we hung out until 2:30 today. And at 2:30 we went on a snorkeling tour of the Cenotes in the nature park that this resort is on. Cenotes are fresh water springs that come up from under the ground. Although there were some little spots that were salt water. But, for my first time snorkeling, it was actually a lot of fun! There were fishes and turtles. Mostly I was just enjoying being in the water, because it definitely felt good on the sunburn. Meanwhile, we were all taking turns being flirted with by our tour guide, Fransisco "Franco". He was a very young, good looking boy who was apparently from Sicily. We were also informed by him that we all needed to go dancing on friday night. We shall see.

Thursday May 14th:

That's today! No sleeping in today. We were up bright and early to head off to the Mayan ruin of Tulum. Which is the only ruins on the beach. I would've learned more about the ruins, but it looked like I was starting to blister and I immediately freaked out and found some shade to hide in. Mom and Lou took some awesome pictures of the ruins and of the beach. Apparently the 2nd largest coral reef was off of that coast, which I didn't know. I also found out the iquanas are good at head banging. There were a bajillion igquanas around and they were all really freaking adorable. See pictures. Before going to Tulum though, we actually waited at a great shop and of course started the souvenir buying process. We opted out of going to this big water park called Xel-Ha, because Lou and I would've been turned into bacon. (Which is also ridiculously awesome here btw.) So back to the resort to eat awesome lunch, make spa reservations and then chill at the pool for another few hours. It was absolutely lovely. And now, after my computer time and much watch checking by Lou and my Mom, it's off to Alebrije (the mexican restaurant at the resort) for dinner and then who knows what!

I'll post more tomorrow and pictures a little later
Chao!

Depressing...

2009-01-29T20:51:00.002-05:00

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I know it's just an online search but that definitely doesn't help my day. Blah...

Eff you eHarmony...

Puppy Power!

2009-01-17T20:47:00.002-05:00

It's just me and Emma, my mom's dog, while everyone's in Cabo.

We're definitely bonding.

Awwwwwwwww...

Them's the breaks

2009-01-15T04:39:00.002-05:00

The rest of my family just left to go to the airport. Then they'll be getting on a plane and flying to San Diego to go on a four day cruise to Cabo San Lucas for my grandfather's 80th birthday.

And I'm still here.

I'm more upset than I thought I was going to be. (Obviously since I'm up at almost 5 am, writing on a blog I hardly update). It just seems like some kind of cosmic bullying. I'm trying to look on the brightside.

I have a well paying, not difficult job.
I have my health (read: I'm still breathing.)
I have family and friends who love me.

But then I remember that I'm still sitting here in Indiana where the weather is -20 degrees and I COULD be on a plane to go to a cruise ship.

Why am I here? Because of that well paying, not difficult job. And I keep reminding myself that it would've been stupid to pick a cruise over financial security. But to be perfectly honest, at this point in time this job doesn't seem worth all the sacrifices I'm making to work there.

Then again, it's also almost 5 am and in my vast experience with looking at life problems at this hour, nothing EVER looks worth it at 5 am.

So, I guess all I can do now is try to sleep, maybe cry a little (more. God I'm so lame). And just keep moving forward.

I can already tell that tomorrow won't be a great at work. We're supposedly having one-on-one's with my coach and in the state I'm in, I'll probably burst into tears, which will be EXTREMELY embarrassing for both of us.

sigh.

Loss

2008-12-28T18:11:00.002-05:00

It's strange when someone dies. We hadn't spoken to each other since high school. Not because of any fight or anything... Just natural growing apart. But I do need to take a moment to mourn my friend.

She was my first best friend in Zionsville. Honestly, the first best friend once I'd learned the concept of best friends. Her dad sold us our new house, so I guess neither of us had much choice. Even so, we were friends. She was everything I wasn't. I was so painfully shy. And her? She was charismatic. One of those kids who said the darndest things. One of those kids that every loved because she was so cute and spunky. We had our fights, I'm sure. I know that for the entirety of 2nd grade we were sworn enemies. Later on neither of us could remember what started that fight. I don't really remember much of the bad...

What I remember is building an igloo and playing explorer. She made me be the girl and stay in the igloo and cook while she hunted and did the man things. And in the summer, we played mermaids and dolphin trainer in her pool. Another summer we choreographed a show on the trampoline to the music of the little mermaid for the neighborhood to watch. Looking back that was just the beginning of our choreography collaborations, since we worked together to choreograph some songs for our show choir. I remember our mobile Kool-Aid stand, taking the kool-aid around the neighborhood in her wagon and being chased by bees. Finding a dead bird on the road and giving it a proper burial in an empty lot. Finding a muddy and bedraggled teddybear on the street and cleaning it up to give to a kid who didn't have one. Sharing secrets... just... sharing life, during those years that become nostalgia and "back in the day". Catching up and laughing about life...

We aren't going to be laughing together anymore... And even though we haven't spoken in years, it hurts. A good person... a good friend has died. And a vital piece of my childhood has died with her. I pray for her family and for her...

Lindsay... Spike... you meant so much to me for those few early years. Your friendship was precious. There are so many memories, both good and bad, and I will NEVER forget you. I wish I could have seen you. Caught up with you. Laughed with you. You are so loved... And you'll be very missed. Rest in peace.

Briliant!

2008-12-16T21:10:00.001-05:00

So extremely brilliant, you have no idea.

Little Frasier and Niles Were Quite the Handful

Teen boy: (glares at brother, bites thumb)
Younger brother: Mom! He's non-verbally quoting Shakespeare at me again!

Denver, Colorado

lol Name that play! I shouldn't be surprised that other people make this same joke, but I always am surprised.

In other news. Love the new job. I'm just antsy to get on with it. Training is a blast, but I'd really love to just be out on the floor, taking real calls.

Siiiiigh.

Cheers

Fo' Sho!

2008-11-17T15:31:00.001-05:00

Aiiiii!! Run for your liiiiives

Douche Dolltm!

2008-11-13T23:14:00.005-05:00

Just squeeze him and he says gems such as:

"I really appreciate what you're telling me. I just need to think about what I want to say..."

"When I don't like how someone is acting, I let them know."

"That's just how I am."

Wooord!

2008-11-07T21:53:00.001-05:00

Check it!

Hetra Weekly!

We're back in the saddle again... Back in the saddle again!

Now, off to work on more biographies and eat cookie cake.

SHWEEEET!

Best Saturday Night EVAR

2008-10-19T19:10:00.008-04:00

So the Broadway series brought Avenue Q to Indy. And I really wasn't planning on seeing it, but Lou and I went to the box office to check it out. And it turned out that if you got to the box office two hours before the show started, you could buy pairs of tickets for $54. So Lou, my mom, my brother Jon and I went! Oh man... It was so amazing..

From ROW F!! That would be the six row from the stage.

All in all? Brilliant Night.

P.S. The world is ending... Proof here

New Toys!

2008-09-07T17:56:00.003-04:00

So yeah. I got a lap top! Yay Macbook Pro! I absolutely love it. I basically don't go anywhere without it.

Then today... Yeah... lol Got a camera. I'm always jealous of Lou's fancy camera, so I got my own. A blue Coolpix L18! It's lovely. The best part? The instructions....

OKAY! Box opened... Everything set up. Date.. Time... Language.. Got it. Next?

Awesome! Good to know.

lol

Anyway. Now? I'm gonna do homework and hang out.

Trust me

2008-08-28T08:38:00.003-04:00

I'm a Doctor

see Obama pictures

I have no idea why that struck me so funny. It must be the early hour.

Well. I am officially done with my first week of school. I've got a good feeling. Let's hope that it persists. I'm really looking forward to basically all of my classes, which is good, because it's a lot harder for me to do homework and keep up when I don't like the class or the teacher. So. I think that's all for now. I should get into class.

Funny Face

2008-08-25T19:25:00.003-04:00

My dog has one too!!

Awesome pictures with the new computer. so mature. lol

Oh Engrish

2008-08-22T12:26:00.002-04:00

I'm not proud. lol Enjoy and get back to your day.

more the engrish!

Wryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy....!

Cheers!

Oh People

2008-08-16T22:01:00.002-04:00

What is WRONG with people?? This is a collector's babydoll... that BREATHES. lol So creepy. We got that in our mail today and I had to share the scariness. Really people? I guess if it keeps psycho people from kidnapping babies because they just want one of their own, then I guess all the better. But still...

In other news, I start school officially on Thursday. I am SO ready. lol There isn't really much else to say about that. I'll hopefully start posting again more when I actually have things to talk about. It's been work work work all summer.

Alright! Fin until later.

Owls

2008-07-06T12:02:00.001-04:00

I hardly ever look at the featured videos on Youtube, but after today I'm thinking I should maybe start. lol From the creator's of the genius that is Weebl and Bob.

Salut! Enjoy

Creativity

2008-06-27T23:00:00.002-04:00

What can you do when you've got lots of ideas but no way to get them out of your head?

It's frustrating and it's these times that I wish I was a better artist. I've got all of these pictures in my head that I wish I could get on paper, but I'm just not good enough. And yes yes yes, it takes practice, but I don't even know where to start. I just don't have the patience.

I don't even have my music to fall back on either. Kind of in a creative funk, which I really hope goes away by the time school starts.

On that front, I just applied for more loan money. Joooy.

Well. Don't really know what to do with myself now, so I guess I'll play some MahJong or something...

Update

2008-05-27T20:54:00.002-04:00

Great song. Great group. "More than Words" as performed by Naturally 7. They were the opening act for Michael Buble. Love them. lol

In other news, the comic is... going.. lol Working on the script now. And in more other news, It's looking like I'll be graduating in Dec. 2010. Here's hoping.

I've applied for a new job... Nothing back yet, but I'll follow up this week. And the honda has finally died. Which sucks, because we could use that extra car, but I definitely can't afford another. New or used.

So, hopefully things will sort... All I can do now is work.

Bored

2008-05-10T10:46:00.002-04:00

I drew this a few days ago. Lou and I were acting out a Halloween dance, and I just couldn't find anything that my character Fiona would wear... So I drew it. It's not great, but it makes me happy.

In other news, went bowling last night with Lou, Jon, Matt, and Matt's friend Kyle. I was complete rubbish. Really, the only one to not break 100. (I didn't even break90. Yeah I'm awful.) It was pretty fun though. Matt is definitely someone that I want to hang out with more. lol He's just a really interesting guy.

Anyway. Happy Saturday. And Happy Mother's day tomorrow to no one that reads this.

The Comic!

2008-05-01T20:42:00.004-04:00

Is getting underway. And... There are really no words for how excited I am. There's so much work to do, but I'm so revved...

Anyway, until we get our own url and everything, we'll have a progress blog up on Blogspot. So

Hetra Weekly

Save it. There isn't anything up yet, but we're getting there! So keep an eye out.

Life Changing Experiences

2008-04-19T11:46:00.004-04:00

There aren't many in a person's life.... life changing experiences, I mean. Being born, falling in love, first time having sex lol, marriage, kids....

Well, I experienced one last night watching Michael Buble, in concert.

I'll start off by saying that the opening act was PHENOMENAL.

A group of guys from New York called Naturally 7. All acapella with a style that they called "Vocal Play". There really aren't words, so go check out their website. If you click Naturally 7 on the top of the page once you get there, it takes you to a page with a music player. It's just all in german. lol Wierd.

Anyway. Then there was Michael. He is an amazing showman... And he made me realize that those dreams I've had, of being a professional singer. Of being on that stage and sharing all those songs that I've loved and have touched my life... It isn't impossible. So that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to be up on that stage someday. It was an emotional night for me, between that and just the plain power of his musicality.

It was a life changing event, and my life has been changed for the better.

Thank you, Michael Buble...

New Music

2008-04-18T00:31:00.002-04:00

Some music just makes you feel fucking good. And MIKA is an artist that makes me feel amazing. lol With a sound reminiscent of Queen and Scissor Sisters, he definitely lights up my day. Lou, thank you SO much for sharing him. lol And now, here is my official summer anthem.

p.s. MICHAEL BUBLE TOMORROW AAHHHHH!!

Party at the Rip's

2008-04-13T01:17:00.002-04:00

I. LOVE. MY. COWORKERS.

Just when I think that they drive me crazy... lol Anyway, Holly Ripley (a.k.a. The Rip) had a wine tasting party tonight. I got there at 7:40 not really planning on staying very long and ended up staying until 11:30. Who was there?

enter, THE LIST:

Holly Shadday and her friend/hetero-life-partner, Whitney.
Craigary
Colin
Shawn (blah)
Kenny
Jamie and her husband Cody
Rip and Mr. Rip
Steve and his two kids Allison (9) and Eli (3) ((Yeah I thought it was wierd too))
And me.

And oh man it was a wonderful time! Lots of really great wine, great company, laughter and great music.

And I think I might have met someone... ...Everyone keep your fingers crossed for me.

Movin'

2008-03-29T20:01:00.002-04:00

Well, I'm completely moved to my mom's now. I've even gotten all my clothes unpacked and my room is starting to look livable. Now I just have to attack the large pile of boxes downstairs... Ah well. It's not as bad as I thought it would be. Everything fits better in my new room than I thought it would, and it's not cramped at all. I will be glad when it's all sorted, though. For tonight at least, I have the house (and pets) to myself. Mom is singing in a concert, and Robert and David went to it. I passed for two reasons. The first being that I'm going to be dog-sitting basically all next week and would really like to be completely unpacked before then. The second reason? I hate Crawfordsville. The community choir bothers me. And I don't give a fuck about the glee club boys. The ones that aren't gay, are also younger than me. lol who really wants to deal with that?

Anyway, I think everything will look better tomorrow. Right now I'm tired, in pain and just blah.

Everything is going to be alright. That's all I gotta tell myself.

Wooo!

2008-03-23T00:05:00.003-04:00

I GOT A NEW PHONE! Thank you God. lol Now I am officially re-connected with the universe. I'm so freaking glad.

... ..lol I have nothing else to say. Going to cathedral for Easter service tomorrow. Joy.

Then Easter Brunch at the Columbia Club. Insert snooty accent here. Seriously, it's a member's only place and VERY republican. lame... Ah well, hopefully the food's good.

So now... I'm done. lol Happy Easter everyone

Yay me!

2008-03-19T14:29:00.001-04:00

I finished my first handmade scarf! Yaaaaaaaaay!

That's all. Back to sorting through my shit so I can start packing.

Big move in 10 days and counting.

Wow Starbucks

2008-03-14T21:53:00.003-04:00

This certainly turned out to be an "Oh My God" day at work. It doesn't sound like a big deal, but it was kind of cool for me. We had a celebrity sighting at work. lol It was Subway Jared! Woooo! I just kind of stared for a second before going and getting his coffee. It's a really weird experience, seeing someone on tv, then seeing them in person...

Then, this completely adorable guy comes in and gets coffee. And it turns out he's not from the U.S. because he just pointed to a quarter and asked how much it was worth. lol So I asked where he was from and it turns out his from southern Brazil and he's an Indycar driver. I'm just really hoping he wasn't a famous one, because if so, I made myself look like an ass.

Stephen Hilbert (yeah that one) is also one of our regulars in addition to a lot of the Fox 59 crew, since Fox is right behind our building.

I never know if I'm seeing someone famous... Guess they're all just customers to me.

lol oh well. Back to being bored.

Placemat art

2008-03-08T11:06:00.005-05:00

So, Lou has started the "placemat art" movement. She's basically done this as long as I've known her, but whenever we go to Steak 'n Shake, she draws on the paper placemats. They're almost always freakin' masterpieces. lol Anway, sometimes I attempt "placemat art" as well, but I hardly ever come up with anything as good. But I do usually come up with something funny. So here we go. My two pieces of art for the "Placemat Gallery"."You want I bring El Fuego?" No idea how this started, but I've been saying it for months now. Maybe it's a mix of Lolcats and Lou's random journeys into espanol. Who knows?

"Imma Nom this Muthafucka!" Now THIS is definitely a Lolcat inspiration. Lolcat meets the psychotic muppet, I think. lol I don't draw cute and cuddly very well...

News

2008-02-24T22:27:00.002-05:00

Okay. So, I've decided that I am DEFINITELY going to go for "The Biggest Loser" cast. I talked to my family, and my brother Robert said that he'd apply with me because they're looking for pairs. And hey, a brother/sister thing could get us in.

Honestly, the thought of this really scares me. It's a huge deal. I mean, there's no reason to get scared now, since I haven't even sent in my application, but still...

Any way, all I can ask of you who are my support group is to just... think of me. Pray, meditate, will the cosmos. Whatever it is you do, when you ask a higher being for help and support, do it for me.

I'm tired of being the way I am, physically. I'm tired of being tired and out of breath and frightened of going to sleep. And I know that I should take it upon myself to start the changes necessary, but this is the only thing I can think of that would give me the necessary kick in the ass. So... well, just think of me.

You all have my unending love and gratitude. Seriously.

Caution

2008-02-24T11:34:00.003-05:00

I'm an ARTEEST! This is a caricature I did of our good friend Caution, using a reference from his dA account. Yeah... I'm pretty awesome.

Breaking Down

2008-02-23T20:11:00.006-05:00

“Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.” -Tom Gates

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness, and the feeling of being unloved.” -Mother Teresa

“Man finds nothing so intolerable as to be in a state of complete rest, without passions, without occupation, without diversion, without effort. Then he feels his nullity, loneliness, inadequacy, dependence, helplessness, emptiness.” -Blaise Pascal

“When friendship disappears then there is a space left open to that awful loneliness of the outside world which is like the cold space between the planets. It is an air in which men perish utterly.” -Hilaire Belloc

“I start to feel like I can’t maintain the facade any longer, that I may just start to show through. And I wish I knew what was wrong. Maybe something about how stupid my whole life is. I don’t know. Why does the rest of the world put up with the hypocrisy, the need to put a happy face on sorrow, the need to keep on keeping on?... I don’t know the answer, I know only that I can’t. I don't want any more vicissitudes, I don't want any more of this try, try again stuff. I just want out. I’ve had it. I am so tired. I am twenty and I am already exhausted.” -Elizabeth Wurtzel

“That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key.” -Elizabeth Wurtzel

“I wonder if any of them can tell from just looking at me that all I am is the sum total of my pain, a raw woundedness so extreme that it might be terminal. It might be terminal velocity, the speed of the sound of a girl falling down to a place from where she can't be retrieved. What if I am stuck down here for good?” -Elizabeth Wurtzel

“I feel like a defective model, like I came off the assembly line flat-out fucked and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out.” -Elizabeth Wurtzel

“And then there are my friends, and they have their own lives. While they like to talk everything through, to analyze and hypothesize, what I really need, what I'm really looking for, is not something i can articulate. It's nonverbal: I need love. I need the thing that happens when your brain turns off and your heart turns on.” -Elizabeth Wurtzel

"Smile though your heart is aching. Smile even though it's breaking. When there are clouds in the sky, you'll get by, if you smile through your fears and sorrow. Smile, and maybe tomorrow you'll see the sun come shining through for you. Light up your face with gladness. Hide every trace of sadness, although a tear maybe ever so near. That's the time you must keep on trying. Smile, what's the use in crying? You'll find that life is still worthwhile, if you just smile." -Charlie Chaplin

Thanks Dunkers!

2008-02-20T13:47:00.001-05:00

Oh New Media nerds...

My Beautiful BlogSpot!

2008-02-20T13:03:00.002-05:00

So, obviously there's been a slight change in scenery here on my blog.

Big HUGE oh my god oh my god thanks to Lou for doing it. lol It's really swank and awesome and I feel like a cooler person just by looking at it.

lol In other news? There is no other news.

Have a good day my dears!

More crap

2008-02-19T15:33:00.004-05:00

I did say I was gonna doodle more crap. lol this should be it for the day.. probably. Dunno. The one on the right... started out with a head. Really... But I decided that trying to correct it was just futile... So? Magic Ball Head lady...

Maybe this time?

2008-02-19T12:50:00.002-05:00

Okay.... So I tried posting before and it wasn't going through, so here's hoping.

I wasn't in a very good mood earlier, but I just got back from Donato's with Lou, and had a rockin' time. So I'm much better now. lol Seriously, it was like Metal Monday only it's Tuesday! And Erin, the cashier/one of five managers, was so rad. lol She called everyone "My Friend". How awesome is that? Wish I could pull that off. I just call most everyone at Starbucks "hon".

Anyway, here's what I was posting earlier today.

Now I don't know how with it you all are at 5 in the A.M., but I'm really not with it. When I open, everything is usually in it's place so I just go on auto-pilot until about 6:30.

Well this morning, things were not all in their places. In fact, all the timers we use for our coffees, creams, and sanitizers were missing. So that was a little confounding and irritating, but I kept doing my thing, figuring I'd find them later.

Next thing I know, the entire store ERUPTS in Fucking Beeping. Now... the timers are really annoying beepers. I have nightmares about these timers. So, you can imagine my joy at the entire store beeping at me. Turns out someone (probably the closers) decided it'd be really funny to set the timers to go off and then hide them in random places. These places included on top of our menu boards, on the espresso machine, behind the registers and on top of a fridge.

Needless to say I was fucking pissed. And I stayed pissed pretty much until I got to Donato's and told the story to Lou. Now? Now I can laugh at it. lol

On another note! I drawed a purty picture! lol Nothing that great or special, but hey, I'm not too ashamed to put it on my blog. So here you go. Ignore the wierd angle. I don't understand photoshop yet.

Woo look at me and my bad self! Now I'm off to doodle more crap!

People

2008-02-12T11:45:00.001-05:00

So, todays weather has been terrifically horrible. lol Everything is covered in a layer of ice that's really just fucking things up.

But anyway! Today I was reminded about how alternatingly awesome and immature the human race is. First? The immature. I was getting gas today, and you know how the cashiers can yell at people over the intercom. Well, I wanna know where this one old guy was from, because he seemed to be surprised that if you were paying with cash, you had to pre-pay. And he wasn't surprised in an "Oh! Really? I'm sorry, that's my fault. I didn't read the sign directly in front of my face."

No, this was surprised as in screaming at the cashier FROM the pump basically incoherently, and then afterwards going inside to yell at the cashier directly about how "He was GOING to buy something else in the gas station, but NOW! It's just stupid. Stupid stupid. Where's your bathroom?!"

lol To make it more awesome, there's the wife of the asshole, nudging his arm all "It's back there, Now Shush!" lol Epic.

Now for the awesome people.

Like I said, everything is covered in ice. That includes my car. So when I got to said gas station, the latch that opens my gas tank door was frozen solid. So after maybe 15-20 minutes standing out in the cold trying to jimmy and pry it open with my keys, this great gentleman at the next pump over comes and tries to help me out. He ended up using a hunting knife, which made me a little nervous.. Didn't want the guy to cut himself helping me out. Anyway, before he tried that he said, "Now you promise that if this breaks the door, you won't sue me or anything."

I just laughed and pointed to my car, "Don't worry, my car's a piece of junk, so it won't really matter."

Anyway, it worked! So I got my gas, continued to be annoyed and amused by the asshole and now I'm home. And I'm not going to leave again until tomorrow morning.

Now! Naptime.

WOOO!

2008-02-03T23:05:00.000-05:00

GO ELI!

HAHA Tom Brady! 3 sacks, fumbles. So laaaaaame!

lol I don't care about football... but it feels really nice that the Pats lost.

Go Giants! And now! I'm off.

Ugh

2008-01-31T21:22:00.000-05:00

For the first time in months, I was unhappy with my co-workers today. That really just threw off the rest of my day, so I was in a slightly annoyed mood all day. lol That's always awesome.

Anyway, what happened. I'll start by saying that there's a regular crew of people that usually works mornings. Out of that group there are only 2 or 3 of them that are female (myself included). Now, the guys I work with are great most of the time. They're funny and they're always joking around. Unfortunately, the longer the newer members of that group work at my store, the closer knit the guys get. So all this week I got stuck working with the "Boys' Club", getting stuck in a proverbial corner and ignored, while they all played around.

At least when Shadday or Emily are around, I can talk to them. Although, both Shadday and Emily are included in "Boys' Club" because they're pretty skinny girls... But, I can still talk to the girls. I don't blame either of them. Just the boys for being chauvinistic jerks.

So today, I just got a little tired of being excluded. So I made a comment on something that David and Shawn were talking about. What does David say?
"Well, see I was talking to Shawn."
And Shawn? "Yeah, you shouldn't comment on conversations that you aren't included in."

Yeah.

Needless to say, I was stung and irritated and upset. Because I knew they were "teasing" but that didn't change what they'd said. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. I can't talk to my boss, because he's part of the group, and it's not like it has anything to do with work. Shawn apologized in a completely laughingly insincere way, which just frustrated me more. So I don't really know what to do.

I hate feeling isolated and excluded... I already have hardly anyone to talk to outside of work. Just Lou and Jon, and I feel like I cling to them way too much as it is.

So. There's my day. Kind of shitty, but after I got home things were good. So there ya go.

In other news, got OkGo's first cd and it's fabulous. I love it and I will listen on repeat for forever. lol

Countdown time.

2008-01-20T21:52:00.000-05:00

Okay, it's not a big deal. But I only have 71 days left as an independant woman. That sounds really melodramatic, but oh well. It's hard to believe, honestly, that the end of March is that soon.

I'm already attempting to pack things up so I can have less work to do come March 31st.

In other news! A group of us went out last night to celebrate a joint birthday. It was completely brilliant, especially since I haven't REALLY gone out for months. We had dinner at Kona Grill.
( http://www.konagrill.com/# ) And ohhh man. The sushi was great. And the company, as well. Our waiter was so adorable, and apparently looked like a mix of Tom Cruise and James Blunt. He was so charming and personable. Well done, Alex! I tipped him well. lol

Then it was off to Comedy Sports ( http://www.indycomedysportz.com/ ) GO CHECK THEM OUT! They are phenomenal! It's a comedy club, but it's all improv. Basically "Whose Line Is It Anyway?" with a sport theme. So the group of us went and drank beer (except Lou lol) and laughed a lot (including Lou).

All in all, it was a really good time, despite being ridiculously cold. I felt a little awkward at times, because there was a couple that I didn't know, but other than that... lol Amy and Tim (the couple) were really nice, so it was really just me being retarded and internally shy.

So now, it's back to business as usual. I've got a full schedule this upcoming week, so that will be nice. Hoping it will help me work through the late January/February blues that I can feel creeping up. There are a lot of things going on in my head right now that I want to express... but I either don't know how, or I'm scared of what would happen if I did. So, I'll be keeping them to myself.

All-in-all, still a good year. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and knocking on wood.

AND NOW! 2008 THEME SONG!!

Deep thoughts for 2008

2008-01-06T22:20:00.000-05:00

Please ignore this. lol Seriously. It's just me babbling about things I've already babbled about. But this'll be the first time in 2008, so that's my excuse.

Count down to moving back home started this month. Move out date is March 30th. That means, hopefully back to school in the fall. Now, here's my question to the cosmos.

After all the huge stress about paying bills and making rent is gone. After I can start focusing on myself. WHERE do I get motivation? I say I'm going to work my ass off, but I always say that.

I just need the motivation to make myself do it... And maybe this time will be different. I'm not going to be stressing about bills and rent. I'm not going to be working as much... Well... Here's hoping. Right now, I just want to get done.

That wasn't as emo as I thought it would be. lol That's a good sign. I just spent the day watching emotional movies, and usually that puts me in a meloncholy mood, but I'm doing alright.

....I think this is going to be a good year. Here's hoping. Fingers crossed everyone.

Cheers!

Home

2007-12-30T13:04:00.000-05:00

I'm Hoooooome!

The epic adventure, that isn't very epic. We got up at 4 am on friday morning only to miss our flight by 3 minutes. Then we proceeded to sit around the airport for the rest of the day not knowing if we'd be able to get on a flight that day at all. Then thank goodness, we got on the last flight of the day.

Needless to say, I didn't get to my apartment until 2:40 am but I'm home! yaaaaaay. lol

Had christmas with my dad, grandmother and aunt and today I'm going to sit around, go to Starbucks to see when I'm working and run to target for some errands. It will be a good day. lol

So I'm off.

Shopping

2007-12-26T23:37:00.001-05:00

Okay, last post of the day I swear.

So David and I ventured out on our own to the mall today. I used my Lane Bryant money. So! The report!

New: Jeans, Green Shirt, Two pairs of earrings, and four bras.

Now! As we were meandering through the mall, we walked by Express and Express for Men. I don't know if anyone's noticed, but all the mannequins at Express have been attacked by Sylar. lol See below.

We're heading home on friday, and I'm definetly ready to be there. I dunno what it was about today, but there was another incident with my grandmother and all I could do was run upstairs and cry. lol Pretty good indicator that I'm ready to be home. Ah well. Soon enough.

Night everyone

Grandmothers say the Darndest things

2007-12-26T15:32:00.001-05:00

Alright. Adding to the small, but ever-growing, list of mean things that my grandmothers have said to me.

Old: Grandmother Galliher- "Laura, you just wait for the right man. Not like your mother."
Oma (mom's mom)- *While patting my stomach* "You don't need cookies, DO you?"

New! Oma- *Patting my leg after a discussion about the icy roads we were on* "But I have you for traction, so we'll be alright."

Yes... She actually said it....

I EFFING LOVE MY FAMILY!!! :D ....not XP.

Christmas!: "The Loot" edition

2007-12-25T17:48:00.000-05:00

So! It's about 4 o'clock Colorado time, Christmas Day. The stockings have been unloaded, the presents have been unwrapped and the turkey has been devoured. (Turkey's must hate the holidays. No break for them. If it's not thanksgiving, it's christmas.)

So here's the loot I've gotten so far:

The second (and final) book of the comic "Sorcerer's and Secretaries"
Money from Aunt Susan and Uncle Kent
The Tony Bennett Duets cd
A cd of Tony Bennett and KD Lang singing duets
Money from Aunt Marian and Uncle Rob
$150 gift card for Lane Bryant

and a fuzzy bright salmon pink sweater...

I shit you not. I now own a salmon pink sweater. It's pretty much as hideous as it sounds. But unfortunately it's from the grandparents, so I'm wearing it for today. I also didn't pack many clothes, and I like wearing something that I haven't worn already.

I still have christmas with Dad and that side of the family. (Read: My other grandmother and maybe my Aunt Carrie.)

On the To Do List:

~Get to the arcade and play a few rounds of DDR
~Use my awesome Lane Bryant money
~Sit in Starbucks (because I shockingly miss it. lol)
~Buy Jon that remote control dump truck (Just kidding, Jon. .... or AM I?! *insert sneaky face here*)
~Enjoy my little cousins before they leave tomorrow, because honestly? They're pretty much awesome.

Christmas time

2007-12-23T12:51:00.000-05:00

Greetings from Boulder Colorado! Everyone's out shopping and being generally busy, so I figured now'd be a good time to get on.

So, we got here on Friday. Then immediately went shopping, which was my own decision. Saturday consisted of hanging out around the condo, wrapping presents and taking my little cousin Kylie sledding. That was a lot of fun, actually. Kylie's pretty much adorable.

Today, I really want to get out, but I can't because we don't have a freaking car. It's driving me crazy. I hate having to rely on people for rides, especially my grandparents. Because as much as I love them, I just want to get away from family for a while. And right now I feel really disconnected and I'm developing a bad case of cabin fever. I'd ask Pau Pau if I could just take his car, but of COURSE seeing as how I've only been here almost every year of my life, I have No IDEA how to get anywhere. (Insert sarcasm here)

And there just isn't anything to do. I've read my books. I don't really want to veg out and watch movies (although I probably will pop in the home movies a little later). That pretty much leaves sleep and staring blankly out the window. blah.

Tonight will be a nice reprieve. We're going out for dinner for Mom's birthday, and then afterwards we're having cake at my aunt Susan's house. So maybe that will help.

On a side note, I miss home. It's nice to not be working. And it's nice to be in Colorado, but I miss the familiarity of home right now. And I don't know why. I think that's part of the reason I'm kind of down today. Meh... What I wouldn't give for some rp about now. lol

Alright. Enough whining. On the positive note, it's gorgeous outside today. Bright bright blue skies with fluffy white clouds and the Rockies. It's even a little warm (for december in colorado lol). Maybe I will ask PauPau if I can borrow his car...

Alright then. I'm off. Happy Christmas everyone, in case you don't get a phone call.

Dream log Stardate 12-15

2007-12-15T11:22:00.000-05:00

lol So apparently, I'm really iching to get back to school. Whenever I start getting that way, I start dreaming about going back to Cottey, which is the first college I went to after I graduated.

Now, for the one person who might read this that DOESN'T know about Cottey. (Don't think I've talked about it...) It's a two-year, all girls college, in the middle of Bumfuck Missouri. Oh! I have talked about this. lol So yeah, there ya go.

In my dream last night, I was back at Cottey. Except there were guys there, and actually my roommate was someone that I was friends with from my New Media classes.

I'm honestly still pretty worried about school... What if it's just not something I'm good at? I'm obviously going to have to make myself do the work... but luckily I won't have Starbucks taking over my time and worrying about money, really. Ugh, I don't know. There are times when I'm not even sure this is what I want to do, but I'm so TIRED of not having a degree that I just want to get the fucking thing. lol

Blah blah blah. Now, I'm going to look out at the snow which is very pretty and hope that it's not too bad when the boys come to do shopping with me.

Oh Man

2007-12-15T00:50:00.000-05:00

Do you ever feel like this? lol This is how I feel after a particularly bad day at Starbucks... Or after a shitty day in general. Or when I think about my ex. lol

Enjoy this awesome picture brought to you by www.icanhascheezburger.com . GO AND LAUGH AT THE FUNNY KITTIES AND OTHER ASSORTED ANIMALS!

Ugh.

2007-12-12T17:31:00.000-05:00

Just woke up after another opening. Man... I seriously woke up and I kind of looked out the window and just thought, "Huh.. it must be early still. Haven't Lou start the shower yet."

....Yeah that's one thing I hate about opening. lol I always end up sleeping and it's always really disorienting. And I always have the wierder dreams during siesta time.

So dream talk:

Everyone was telling me "Oh man. We don't know if Lou and your brother (david) are going to make it..." And I'm freaking out, because I have no idea what's happened. So I call Lou and she tells me that they've been in a car accident, but she's going to be fine. whew... So for some reason I'm going out with friends to a japanese resteraunt called "Midori" and people from high school are there and being assholes. And there's this girl, Heather, that's near by and she's just talking really loudly and being rude. So I'm like... covering her mouth and trying to get her to be quiet. And she just LICKS my Hand! How mature. lol But that just pisses me off so I start just... trying to hurt her. And all she does is laugh. And I just freak out and collapse on the floor and cry, because apparently I'm still worried about Lou and David. Then this guy comes up and kneels next to me and says, "I need to talk to you about your brother's dead children." But all I here really is "Your brother's dead." and I flip out even more until he explains. In which I calm down immediately and say "Oh my brothers don't have kids. They haven't even dated anyone." lol Next thing I know I'm at a table with another couple and David James Elliott from JAG fame. Look him up. He's preeeeetty. So I got to hold hands and cuddle with him. (insert only good part of the dream. lol)

Then somehow, I'm barefoot in Chicago, shoplifting from a really nice store. And I get back out to my car and I'm trying to start it, when this girl gets in. I just stare at her and say, "Um... this is the wrong car.. " She just waves her hand and says, "Oh I know. I'm trying to find reception. " Like it'd be in my car. lol "Actually could you do me a favor? Could you e-mail me a list of places to go in Key West? My names Becca. You can use my phone, since I have another one." Giggle, hair-toss, and hands me a lime green phone. I just look at the phone and go ".... Okay..."

And then I wake up and think that it's Thursday! Woooo... busy day. lol

Anyway, that's all for now. Gotta start the calls for the weekly meeting of the Galliher Clan.

What a day!

2007-12-11T15:35:00.000-05:00

So today had the set-up to be a really bad day. I had to open, which meant a 4:30 alarm, after maybe two and a half hours of sleep. It's been wet and gloomy all day. It's Tuesday. lol Usually these days are crappy.

But man, did my customers come through today! First off, these two folks that come in around 6:30 every morning (whom I adore. The guy's kinda grumpy but funny, and the lady is just the sweetest person you could ever meet.) gave David and I $5 each as a tip/christmas present. lol And hey, after really bad tips last week ($.84/hour) any money is awesome. Then, a couple weeks ago I was talking about how I didn't have a very good ice scraper for my car. So this morning, Rose (who is also amazingly sweet. She always has a smile and a word of encouragement for everyone.) gave me an ice scraper! Alissa, who is a riot, gave us a christmas card, which was awesome, because we love her and it's nice that she thought of us. And last but DEFINETLY not least, "5-shot venti americano" Steve (lol that's how I had to describe him to people afterwards) gave the entire store $100 to split between us all as an early christmas present! I freaked out so hard. lol

The three other people I was working with definetly helped. Opening with David is always nice, because we know each other's routine in the morning. lol We call ourselves Peanut Butter and Jelly. Then Shadday came in at 7, and I just effing love her. We spend most of our time laughing when we work together. And then Shawn, who is a newer shift at the store, is so fun to harrass, because he gives it right back.

So by the end of my shift, I'm getting slap-happy and delirious. And some how the conversation between Shadday and I turns to a discussion of dirty homeless kids (aka street urchins) and how they'd stick people up for cheese. "Hey man. You got STRING cheese?" "I wants me some Kraft Singles! A single's worth two Blow pops now. Man I could really use me some Blow."

lol It was a good end to the day. SO! For anyone who reads this, PASS THE CHEER! Execute a random act of kindness and make someone's would-be crappy day better!

Dreams

2007-12-09T09:17:00.000-05:00

I've been known to have some pretty epicly (which is now a word, gosh darnit) weird dreams. Like when I was five or so, I had a nightmare that I was on a giant pool table and two knights were jousting on it. I, of course being stuck in the middle, got trampled. Nice.

Growing up, I pretty much died in my dreams every night. Also nice. lol Fast forward quite a few years, and we get to the dream where I was being stalked by four ninjas in samurai outfits. Only each Samurinja's armor was one solid color. Red, Blue, Green, and Yellow. Bright bright colors, so of course I could always see them. Now, in the retelling, that's pretty amusing. But when I was dreaming it, I was scared shitless. Running around trying to escape, when I run into my house and everyone's waiting for me throwing a baby shower because APPARENTLY, I'm having a baby AND being stalked by the Primary Color Samurinja Clan.

Now lately, my dreams have either been about work people or skit people. Definetly had a dream that my co-worker Kenny and I were getting married, only Kenny was the one in the wedding dress. lol Then I had a dream that I was getting ready for work and was trying to take a bath before I went. And one of the high school girls I work with was in the bathroom too and apparently she was trying to become a lawyer. That dream is all a little disjointed in my head, but I do remember standing in an over-flowing fountain in the lobby of some building, probably trying to take that bath still. lol And then I couldn't finish it because I had to go to work, which was when my alarm went off. Then there was the dream that I was organizing a big birthday party for Kenny (again with Kenny. lol He wonders why I dream about him so much) and everyone from work showed up except him, and when I gave him crap about it later he was all, "Oh yeah.. uh.. sorry about that. I had a thing.. I forgot. and blah blah blah.."

The skit dreams have actually been ridiculously in character lately too. When the rp was between three of us, I'd have these wierd dreams where characters were switched around and not acting right. But, like the night before last, I had a dream involving a married couple, Beau and Nora. Now, a little backstory, Nora is claustrophobic with a VERY intense fear of elevators. She got stuck in one alone when she was little. She also has the elemental power of light. Beau, her husband, can control electricity. This couple met when Beau was a Junior in high school, and Nora was a sophomore and they basically fell in love instantly. They got married almost as soon as Nora turned 18 and have lived extremely happily ever since.

Now! That's a lot of build-up for a dream, and only Lou would really get the humor. But said couple step into an elevator and it promptly breaks and drops. So Nora's freaking out, and Beau's trying to get them out. So he whips out the powers and tells her to push a button. And when it gets to the floor she pushed, the door's open to a floor being quickly flooded with water ala "Titanic". lol And it's like, every floor they go to takes them to a completely different place. So Nora, who is a little clueless, goes out to explore one of the places just all "Ooo this is interesting!" While Beau's looking around like "Oh this isn't gonna be good..."

So yeah... Not as amusing or interesting for anyone who doesn't know Nora and Beau. NOW! I'm going to end my story time, with my most recent scariest dream ever. Some may laugh and that's fine, but this scared the living crap out of me and when I think about it, it still gives me the willies (Whatever those are).

I was working at a quaint little Bed and Breakfast in the English countryside, which was apparently owned by Angela Lansbury. Now, there had been a murder on the property during the night and instead of calling the cops, Angela's all "The body's down by the lake. Get rid of it, before it upsets the guests. Here take this with you, in case you need anything." And she hands me a walky talky that has a really thick and stiff cord attatched. I think it's ridiculous but I take it anyway and head out into the fog and around the side of the building, which is pretty much all window. So I can see Angela in her office and she can see me, so I talk into the walky, "There's no way this is going to reach all the way." And then the cord promptly rips out of the bottom of the walky and whips back into the room. And there was nothing slo-mo about it, when it just whips into her and kills her. So great. I've just killed Angela Lansbury and I'm just standing there, frozen because it'd all gone by so quickly. Then, as I'm just standing there all "OH SHIT!" She effing POPS BACK UP, completely stiffly and unnaturally and she just stares back at me with red eyes. Then she kind of shambles along the window on the inside towards me, and I'm freaking out and unable to move. Then she just reaches through the window, her hand and arm passing right through the glass, and strangles me.

... Blugh (Insert SIDS :sudden icky dance syndrome: and goosebumps) Seriously effing scary dream....

So, that's the end of story time for now. Sweet dreams everyone. Don't let Angela Lansbury come and kill you through a window!

Oh look! Something shiny!

2007-12-08T18:10:00.000-05:00

So! Today we went grocery shopping!

lol the end.

Just kidding. Well, not about the shopping... anyway. Pretty much all I've got going on right now, besides work, is the skit. And it feels weird to talk about that here. So blah. Not a lot to talk about. That's pretty lame. Still working out the kinks of my mother's birthday present.... ... Yup, that's all.

The end really this time.

Have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas

2007-12-04T18:14:00.000-05:00

What is it about being an adult that both ruins and enhances vacations? I don't know. All I do know is that I'm going to Colorado for a week and on one hand, I'm stoked that I'll have a week free of green aprons and the dreaded espresso machine. And on the other I'm worried, because that's a week of no income. Blaaaaaah. Hopefully I'll be getting money mostly for Christmas. That will help supplement a little.

It doesn't feel like 21 days until Christmas. It feels like it should still be October, or something.

On a completely unrelated and slightly psychotic sounding note. Today, I just got the strongest feeling that the life I'm living just isn't mine. I have a lot of these "Out of place" experiences. More and more in the past year. When I tell people that, they usually look at me like I'm crazy, but what can ya do? Maybe it's just discontentment with where I am in life right now. But, it's almost like I know I should be doing something else. I just don't know what that something else is.

lol Okay, so I'm unhappy with my lot in life right now. Let's chalk it up to that.

Shut up, crazy lady, and move on.

Well, I'm actually considering making a demo reel of some voice acting and singing. Colin brought it up once, and as always it struck a chord.

So cross your fingers all two people who will read this.

Now I'm off. Cheers.

Lalala

2007-11-05T22:00:00.000-05:00

So, there's a little college town about 45 minutes north of me that has a community choir. I've participated a few times, but I never completely enjoy it. A lot of that is because it's a 45 minute drive.... alone with my mother. lol I love my mom, but whenever we're alone together the conversation is usually kind of depressing. Talking about my dad, talking about how I could be doing so much more with my life. Meh.

Another negative on the scale for community choir is one that I'm not particularly proud of, but when it comes to singing, I tend to be a bit of a snob. It's like... I want to be in a group that is the best. That sounds awesome. I want to be working with professionals. lol Rehearsals tended to get monotonous for me. And there really isn't anyone my age, since it's mostly older members of the community. I guess there are a few glee club guys from Wabash, but they're all buddies and don't really talk to me.

But, on the positive side, I'd be in a structured singing group again. I really miss that. I miss singing for a purpose... Honestly, I just really miss singing. It's something that really brings a lot of joy to my life. And the fact that people are shocked when they find out I can sing, bothers me. I love singing. I love music... and since I gave that part of myself up, I've felt a palpable loss. It's hard to explain. ...It'd be like Lou waking up one morning and the ability to draw just vanishing. Or like... I don't even know what. lol I don't know anyone else with talents that could equate to how I feel.

Since middle school, when I first started singing and getting recognition for it. singing has been a major part of my identity. And not having that in my life, has thrown off my identity a little... or a lot.

It's amazing how one small thing can have that much affect on a person.

Oh well. Off now. It's going to be an easy week this week, which is a blessing and a curse. A blessing because I'm sick, but a curse because I really need the hours.

Update? sure

2007-11-04T10:20:00.000-05:00

So. I quit the second job. For a number of reasons, but the deciding factor was the fact that I was mentally breaking down.

So back to Bux only for me. Keep our fingers crossed, that this works out.

Yesterday, a bunch of us went to a former baristas wedding. It was a lovely ceremony. Very intimate and short. lol Anyway, we had about an hour to kill between the ceremony and the cocktail hour before the reception. So what do we do? We go to a bar. lol So between the cigar bar and the cocktail hour, two of our guys were pretty much drunk. Oh! Add a flask of Crown to the mix... Now, I won't lie. I had quite a bit myself, but I'm not a rowdy crazy drunk like our two guys. Anyway, despite the fact that we were the last table to go and therefore didn't really get any food, it was a nice reception. We all danced, which was fun. In general, I came to realize that my coworkers are a lot of fun to hang out with.

And now, I'm nursing a really sore throat and hoping that it isn't me getting sick...

So that's all folks.

Emo Warning!

2007-10-29T22:10:00.000-04:00

Emo happens. I basically didn't leave the apartment all day today, which is my own fault and super lame. But I didn't really have anywhere to go, and definetly no one to hang out with. It's becoming apparent how much of a loser I am, recently. That sounds like I'm feeling sorry for myself, and I guess I am, but I only have ONE friend. One person who will be there if I need them. One person I can laugh and be stupid and myself with. And, yeah, that kind of sucks.

Self-image checkpoint: (This isn't me trying to get sympathy. This is truly how I see myself)

We don't even have to get into the physical part.

I'm annoying. I'm boring. I'm not intelligent. I don't have any worthwhile or creative ideas in my head. I don't bring anything to a conversation besides noise. I don't have any deep thoughts. I don't have any insights. I have nothing to say that could be considered thought-provoking. I feel like I try to be funny and fail. I feel like people feel sorry for me, and are nice to me on charity. I feel like an outsider and a satellite.

How do you change things like that? How do you change those thoughts? I mean, I hate how I look, but all that takes is diet and excercise. And patience to do all the cosmetic things girls do. But those thoughts? I could be a size zero and still feel the same way, because the outside isn't the inside. And I feel like I'm surrounded by people who have so much more to offer to a conversation than I do. I don't want to be one of those people who as soon as I've left, everyone goes "What the fuck was that?"

It's getting close to winter, which of course means seasonal depression time. I'm so looking forward to that. And with already feeling like this on top of it? ... I just don't know how to deal with all these emotions. I don't know how to get through everything, when I feel like it's all hopeless. I feel worthless and I don't know how to fix it. And I hate that this is going to fall on that one friend's shoulders. It's a lot to carry, and she's got enough to worry about on her own... But I'm not the kind of person that can go on alone and beat the odds and fuck the world. I need support. I need people who love me, and whom I love, surrounding me. And right now, I don't even feel like I have my family.

My family's never been one where we're all there for each other, no matter what. I wish it was, because that would make all of this better...

I don't know. We'll see how this week goes, I guess. For now. I apologize, Lou, for bringing the emo home.

TRIGGER!!

2007-10-27T00:41:00.000-04:00

Okay! Holy shit you guys! So, just got back from the concert which, after the abysmal opening act, was FUCKING AWESOME! (Lou, almost typed AESOM. I shit you not) Anyone who can, you all need to go see OkGo live in concert because they are phenomenal performers.

Now, to explain the title of this blog. Lou and I are in the process of making a comic. To prepare for this, we role play and act out the stories before hand. Why? Well because one, it helps get genuine reactions to situations. And two? It's just a lot of fun. Anyway. There are multiple bands in this comic, one of which we based off of OkGo. So seeing them live was so great for the comic. Damien (the lead singer) acts almost exactly the way Jude (the comic lead singer) would in the comic.

After all of the extremely loud music, the four of us decided that going someplace for a quiet drink would be nice. So we went to this pub that we like only to find that there was a band playing there. And we got seated right next to it. lol Luckily they were cool about moving us and we ended up spending the next hour drinking and laughing our asses off. Jon was a funny guy and Kelly was just awesome. It was cool because she turned out to be someone that I'd be friends with if I'd just met her somewhere myself.

Now, I'm going to scrape off the make-up and chill. I've got nowhere to be tomorrow, so I can just sleep in and enjoy. You know I was in my pajamas five minutes after I walked in the door. lol

Finally!!

2007-10-26T17:31:00.001-04:00

Getting out of the house! lol Lou and I are meeting up with one of her classmates (Jon) and his wife to go see OkGo at Butler University. I like the band a lot, but mostly I'm just stoked to have a reason to dress up and go out. lol

And as for dressing up, I feel very pretty. Haven't done make-up with this new hairstyle yet, and I think it looks great. Maybe there will be cute boys at this concert. lol

So, I'll post more this weekend and tell about the night. Maybe I'll be able to steal some pictures from Lou's camera.

TTFN! (always wanted to say that. Ta-ta for now. lol))

Faaaail

2007-10-21T18:05:00.001-04:00

Alright alright. So I fail at updating every day, but to be honest I don't really have much to say. I'm coming up on my 6 month review at Starbucks, which should go well, unless I've done something monsterous without realizing. 6 month review means a bonus and possible a raise, so keep your fingers crossed, everyone.

I'm already sick of the second job that won't be named. And I mean sick in all meanings of the word. Since I started, I've thrown up and had a pretty constant low-grade fever. How awesomely stupid is that? Blah.

In happier news! The group OkGo is coming to concert this friday. So Lou and I and one of Lou's classmates are going to go. Then coming up after that is one of my former Starbucks co-workers wedding. So that's life for me. Went shopping with Lou all day yesterday, basically trailing after her on her quest for jeans and brown dress shoes. Did laundry and watched an excessive amount of movies today. And then who knows what I'll do tomorrow. Get my tips and sleep, I guess.

So here are my closing thoughts. And I hope everyone has a good week.

From a fortune cookie: "The axe soon forgets, but the tree always remembers."

From the movie "The Holiday":
"I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

To Do List, Updated!

2007-10-16T22:10:00.001-04:00

Something Lou brought up and I totally agree with.

To do!

Dance with and/or marry Maksim Chmerkovsky. He's one of the proffesional dancers on Dancing with the Stars and OH MY GOD SO HOT! lol

Night all

Well then

2007-10-16T19:10:00.000-04:00

I'm trying to post everyday, but there are just going to be days when I don't have anything to say...

This is kind of one of those days, I guess.

It was "Boss Appreciation Day" today. So we had a lot of people coming in and buying gift cards for their bosses. So towards the end of my shift, I was talking about this with Holly, my fellow barista, and a customer who is actually a barista at another store. And we've come to the decision that there should be a National Barista Appreciation Day. It made us laugh, but thinking about it, I think it's a good idea. I mean, there are so many people who depend on their cup of coffee or their Quad Venti Non-fat Extra Hot White Mocha with Light Whip, just to get their day started alright.

And just to show how tired I am, I've totally lost interest in that previous thought. lol I worked both jobs today. So was pretty much on my feet from 5 am to 5 pm. Wooo! Such fun. So now, I'm done typing.

Day Two

2007-10-15T10:31:00.000-04:00

First some bitching and moaning, then some inspiration. lol

Alright, first off. When it's 5:00 in the morning, do you really think that your opening barista wants a shit ton of work to do? Especially when it takes the half an hour they get before opening just to get the normal stuff done?

The answer is ABSOLUTELY NO! And I was really surprised this morning when I had every single frappuccino base to make, on top of setting up the pastry case, brewing coffee (hot and iced), making tea, setting up the bar, etc. etc. etc. On top of THAT I was working with a new shift manager who doesn't really know the routine we openers have at my store, so I ended up doing the majority of the opening tasks myself.

So okay, for a monday morning? That kind of sucked. Luckily it turned out to be a pretty slow day, and a short one for me anyway.

Now moving on! This weekend I went to a family reunion. Blah blah blah, lots of old people I didn't know and feeling awkward. AFTER that, David, Lou and I went met up to go see "Across the Universe". Which is a new musical out, using only Beatles songs. It was pretty brilliant, and I had to go out and buy the soundtrack the next day. So! If anyone reads this, go see "Across the Universe"! It's an interesting movie, and definetly enjoyable if you like the Beatles.

Now, for the Inspiration part. I got this little speech from a customer. He'd gone in to speak to his daughter's econ club, and gave us the speech after he'd finished. And I really liked it, so I'm going to share with all two people who will probably read this.

Imagine there is a bank account that credits your account each morning with $86,400. It carries over no balance from day to day.
Every evening the bank deletes whatever part of the balance you failed to use during the day. What would you do? Draw out every cent, of course?
Each of us has such a bank. It's name is TIME.
Every morning, it credits you with 86,400 seconds.
Every night it writes off as lost, whatever of this you have failed to invest to a good purpose.
It carries over no balance. It allows no over draft. Each day it opens a new account for you. Each night it burns the remains of the day.
If you fail to use the day's deposits, the loss is yours. There is no drawing against "tomorrow."
You must live in the present on today's deposits. Invest it so as to get from it the utmost in health, happiness and success!
The clock is running! Make the most of today.

To realise the value of ONE YEAR, ask a student who failed a grade.

To realise the value of ONE MONTH, ask a mother who has given birth to a premature baby.

To realise the value of ONE WEEK, ask the editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realise the value of ONE HOUR, ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realise the value of ONE MINUTE, ask a person who just missed a train.

To realise the value of ONE SECOND, ask someone who just avoided an accident.

To realise the value of ONE MILLISECOND, ask the person who won a silver medal at the Olympics.

Treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time with. And remember time waits for no one.

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That's why it's called the present.

Oh Look! A Bandwagon!

2007-10-14T15:31:00.000-04:00

Let's JUMP on it!

I got tired of my livejournal. So here I am at Blogger.

*SPARKLES!* INTRO POST TIME! *SPARKLES!*

My name is Laura. I'm 22 and a cancer and I'm pretty sure I like long walks on the beach. I haven't done that in a very long time, so who knows. I might hate it now.

If the title of my blog doesn't clue you in, I'm also one of the many (but still proud) baristas at Starbucks. Despite the crappy hours and the plastered on grin and the "How ARE you this lovely 5:45 in the morning?!", I do enjoy my job. I'm lucky to have a lot of really awesome regular customers at my store.

When I'm not at Starbucks (or my second job which is retarded and not even worth talking about here), I'm trying to gear up to head back to college. College and I have had a pretty turbulent on again/off again relationship since I graduated from high school in 2003. It just takes and takes and takes, and doesn't give me much in return but promises that it'll be worth it in the end. So this last time around I found myself with no money, failing grades and a somewhat irate roommate.

So, I'm taking time off until my roommate (who will be henceforth known as "Lou") and I's lease runs out in May. Then it's back to my mother's house and back into a committed relationship with College.

What promises does college hold for me, you may ask? Well I'm gonna tell ya! A bachelor's of science in Informatics! "What the hell does THAT mean, Laura the barista?!" I hear you all cry in frustrated curiosity. Well, kids. Let Auntie Laura the Barista tell you. It means all sorts of things! But specifically for me, it means that maybe, if I'm lucky and work really hard, I'll someday get to work in the movies and make sound effects.

Sarcasm aside, that is really want I want to do "when I grow up". Foley would be fun, but I'd also like to be the one that designs new sounds. Here's the example I always use. In the movie "Lord of the Rings" they had a large amount of fantastical creatures such as cave trolls and goblins and the like. Now Cave Trolls and Goblins don't really exist. Or if they do, they weren't cooperative enough to come out and be shot at and killed so they could get realistic sounds for the movie. So what do they do? For a wounded and dying Cave Troll, they took the sound of a walrus roar and a couple other sounds and they mixed them together on the computer. Lo and Behold! We have that wonderfully tragic sound you hear in the theatres while you're shoveling popcorn. THAT is what I want to do.

A lot of people ask me if that is what I've always wanted to do. The answer is Immediately no. Through the last part of middle school and all of high school, I wanted to be a singer. So now you know. I am a singer. I'm trained in classical and opera, which I do enjoy, but I also love jazz and broadway. At the end of this post, I'm going to be writing a list of things I want to do and learn in my life, but that's for later. Anyway, straight out of high school I went to college with a major of Performing Arts. I'm a good singer. Hell, I'm a GREAT singer. And for those who know me, you know it's taken me a long time to get to the point where I can admit that. But being a performance major, was and IS not for me. I don't think you will EVER meet a group of more blood-thirsty individuals, pageant contestant's excluded. In general, I'm a pretty chill lady. I like hearing other people sing. I enjoy collaborations. I don't think that my voice is God's gift to the world, nor do I think that I'm better than everyone else. And in that degree, you have to think that way. So, I dropped out of that school and came home to make some money. After a year or so, Lou clued me in on a track of her major and I got hooked. So here I am.

The making money part of my life, hasn't been a success obviously. And like I said before, college and I are on tenuous terms most of the time. But here's hoping.

So for now, I've got work and work and more work.

-----------BEGIN EMO WHINE PART! You have been warned---------------------------------

I'm tired. I'm stressed. And I want a FUCKING break. There. I said it. You'd be shocked at how much scraping pennies can ruin your life. Living paycheck by paycheck is the worst. It hurts me. It hurts my roommate. And it hurts my family.

And mostly, I just wish I had someone I could let that all out to. I can get through all the crap that's coming for the next seven months. I know I can. But god dammit, it's going to suck. And I'm going to want and need to bitch and moan about it. But everytime I do, it seems like EVERYONE is telling me to get over it and stop whining. "Things could be so much worse, Laura! Stop complaining and have a positive outlook on life."

This is the wrong thing to say, people. Why? Because then I want to slap you and tell you to go fuck yourself. You wanna know why? Because the people who say that, are people who are much better off than me and think they're being "helpful".

I'm lucky in one fashion because I at least have one escape. Lou and I are "working on a comic". I put that in quotes because it hasn't actually happened yet, and there's really no sign of it happening anytime in the next few months. But in order to get ready for the time that it actually happens, we act all of our stories out. Roleplaying. So I get to be all these different characters who are MUCH better off than I am, and therefore happier. It's nice to pretend to be someone who is prettier, smarter, and just generally better off.

So, I'm tired and stressed. Mostly tired right now. And just itching to run away. To go somewhere new and start a new life. But, I've got more than a few things tying me down here, so that will have to wait until graduation in a few billion years.

-------------------------End whiny emo part--------------------------------

And now! My list of things I want to do and learn before I die:

-Play the violin
-Play the tin whistle
-Learn to Step dance, ballroom dance, tap dance and pretty much any other dance out there.
-Weigh 170 lbs.
-Learn to cook really really well
-Learn French, Japanese, and Italian.
-Own an Aston Martin
-Spend time in Ireland
-Live in Scotland and/or England
-Release an album
-Sing on Broadway/West End
-Be a voice actress in a Miyazaki film
-Fall in love, get married, and have kids