Ugh

For the first time in months, I was unhappy with my co-workers today. That really just threw off the rest of my day, so I was in a slightly annoyed mood all day. lol That's always awesome.

Anyway, what happened. I'll start by saying that there's a regular crew of people that usually works mornings. Out of that group there are only 2 or 3 of them that are female (myself included). Now, the guys I work with are great most of the time. They're funny and they're always joking around. Unfortunately, the longer the newer members of that group work at my store, the closer knit the guys get. So all this week I got stuck working with the "Boys' Club", getting stuck in a proverbial corner and ignored, while they all played around.

At least when Shadday or Emily are around, I can talk to them. Although, both Shadday and Emily are included in "Boys' Club" because they're pretty skinny girls... But, I can still talk to the girls. I don't blame either of them. Just the boys for being chauvinistic jerks.

So today, I just got a little tired of being excluded. So I made a comment on something that David and Shawn were talking about. What does David say?
"Well, see I was talking to Shawn."
And Shawn? "Yeah, you shouldn't comment on conversations that you aren't included in."

Yeah.


Needless to say, I was stung and irritated and upset. Because I knew they were "teasing" but that didn't change what they'd said. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. I can't talk to my boss, because he's part of the group, and it's not like it has anything to do with work. Shawn apologized in a completely laughingly insincere way, which just frustrated me more. So I don't really know what to do.

I hate feeling isolated and excluded... I already have hardly anyone to talk to outside of work. Just Lou and Jon, and I feel like I cling to them way too much as it is.

So. There's my day. Kind of shitty, but after I got home things were good. So there ya go.

In other news, got OkGo's first cd and it's fabulous. I love it and I will listen on repeat for forever. lol

Countdown time.

Okay, it's not a big deal. But I only have 71 days left as an independant woman. That sounds really melodramatic, but oh well. It's hard to believe, honestly, that the end of March is that soon.

I'm already attempting to pack things up so I can have less work to do come March 31st.

In other news! A group of us went out last night to celebrate a joint birthday. It was completely brilliant, especially since I haven't REALLY gone out for months. We had dinner at Kona Grill.
( http://www.konagrill.com/# ) And ohhh man. The sushi was great. And the company, as well. Our waiter was so adorable, and apparently looked like a mix of Tom Cruise and James Blunt. He was so charming and personable. Well done, Alex! I tipped him well. lol

Then it was off to Comedy Sports ( http://www.indycomedysportz.com/ ) GO CHECK THEM OUT! They are phenomenal! It's a comedy club, but it's all improv. Basically "Whose Line Is It Anyway?" with a sport theme. So the group of us went and drank beer (except Lou lol) and laughed a lot (including Lou).

All in all, it was a really good time, despite being ridiculously cold. I felt a little awkward at times, because there was a couple that I didn't know, but other than that... lol Amy and Tim (the couple) were really nice, so it was really just me being retarded and internally shy.

So now, it's back to business as usual. I've got a full schedule this upcoming week, so that will be nice. Hoping it will help me work through the late January/February blues that I can feel creeping up. There are a lot of things going on in my head right now that I want to express... but I either don't know how, or I'm scared of what would happen if I did. So, I'll be keeping them to myself.

All-in-all, still a good year. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and knocking on wood.

AND NOW! 2008 THEME SONG!!

Deep thoughts for 2008

Please ignore this. lol Seriously. It's just me babbling about things I've already babbled about. But this'll be the first time in 2008, so that's my excuse.

Count down to moving back home started this month. Move out date is March 30th. That means, hopefully back to school in the fall. Now, here's my question to the cosmos.

After all the huge stress about paying bills and making rent is gone. After I can start focusing on myself. WHERE do I get motivation? I say I'm going to work my ass off, but I always say that.

I just need the motivation to make myself do it... And maybe this time will be different. I'm not going to be stressing about bills and rent. I'm not going to be working as much... Well... Here's hoping. Right now, I just want to get done.



That wasn't as emo as I thought it would be. lol That's a good sign. I just spent the day watching emotional movies, and usually that puts me in a meloncholy mood, but I'm doing alright.

....I think this is going to be a good year. Here's hoping. Fingers crossed everyone.

Cheers!